Corona Got Me Like.....

Hello all three of my readers. I am feeling compelled to write again. Not sure what I am going to say, so maybe I will now leave it up to the Holy Spirit. Come Holy Spirit! Come to me to put into words the way that I am feeling. Come to me to ease this troubled heart that is inside of me. Come to me to do the will of God and the Son whom He sent to save us all.

THAT IS IT!!

Jesus came to save us all. So what the hell are we doing? (Excuse the language). But I mean really, what are we doing? Yes, that is rhetorical. And yes I am far from perfect! However, I have never been so troubled by what I am seeing today in the world. I am afraid. I am afraid for myself, my kids, my kid's kids and the world I love so much. What are we doing to each other? What happened to the nation that came together in March? Where are those hearts? I know they are still there. Where is the nation that prayed more, looked to God more, and loved our fellow brother and sister more, no matter what?

I sit here not really knowing what to do as an individual to change the world. But I think I know my part in this, which is the first step. So bear with me as I try to articulate what I have been doing. I finished a remarkable St. Ignatian Spiritual Exercises Retreat in May. (Highly recommend it.) This was an 8 month journey that started really rough for me. I knew God loved me. But I needed to know why he loved me and that He loved me despite my sinful ways. I felt like I wasn't worthy to have a relationship with Jesus that would be so intimate. But then guess what???? God SHOWED UP for me. There were experiences of immense closeness and revelations. Then there were moments of trials and separation. The one thing I remember and came to realize was that God never separated from me. I separated from Him. I became complacent. I became way too comfortable. Yep, sure did. Like hey look at me all close to God and all..... then BOOM! I began listening to the noise of the world.... again.

Don't get me wrong. The world is amazing. After all God created the Earth 🌎 right? But what I started to listen to, was the things that separated me from God. I listened with the volume up loud as can be. Are you listening to the things that separate you from God? Just ask yourself that question. Ponder it for at least 2 minutes. I'll wait.

No try for the full 2 minutes.

Hard isn't it? It's ok to wonder, just tell yourself you'll go back to it after the 2 minutes is up.

Keep going... You can do it. I promise. God can do unbelievable things in 2 minutes of silence.

I want you to know you are not alone. I don't have the answers by any means. I do know that things need to change. And they need to change today. I for one am going to start praying more. Then I am going back to listening to our God in his world for us through scripture.

I challenge you to read the Gospel of John. Especially John 8:1-11. The Beloved Disciple really is on to something. Maybe he can help you turn down the volume of the world and turn up the volume of God.