Hello, my name is the real slim... hum am I shady?

So are you reading this thinking, "great another stupid blog someone thinks they can write?" Well yes, yes you are. Because I am writing this thinking the exact same thing. But there is ONE BIG DIFFERENCE HERE. I was asked by GOD to do this.

May I have your attention please?

What? God asked me to do this?

So starting a blog is much harder than I ever thought possible. I don't even know where to begin. I am not one to pour out my feelings in a way that readers would ever be interested. As the Real Slim Shady would say, "yea I probably got a couple of screws up in my head loose," to even try to do this, but my intentions are real. "All you other Slim Shadys are just imitating." Am I imitating?

Are you still there? churp churp churp.

Maybe I will start from the beginning. My story hopefully will inspire you to know that our journey has a purpose. Even when we fall, and believe me I fall all the time. I still want to do the will of God. Don't you? Maybe, my failures and trials can help.

My first confession...

I lied very early on about being Catholic or even a Christian. For some silly reason, I thought being Catholic was cool. California is a place of the rich and cool. I lived there people... trust me, it is a place of the rich and cool. You could have no money at all but be rich. Rich in debt, rich in lies, rich in keeping up with the Jones. I have absolutely nothing against Californians now or ever. In fact, anyone who knows me knows I am very proud to be from California. It made me who I am with some hidden grooming from God of course. Wink Wink.

I always laugh now at the fact that I lied about being Catholic. Sorry friends and foes that I lied to in high school. Forgiveness right? Oh goodness, I hope so. I am banking on it. (I am just getting started). I often think to myself, "God were you trying to tell me something?" God is funny... I have more on that later, but he really does have a sense of humor.

Lying was a big big problem for me. It cost me (dang there is the mention of money again), almost everything. Why was I lying about being Catholic? I had not one Catholic friend or family member. No one even went to church. Where did this come from then? Who does that? I can see lying about... well no we should not lie about anything. Commandment number 8 people. Thou shall not bear false witness. That means no lying. But why did I do it? God did not make me lie. I CHOSE to lie. God was laying on my heart the desire for him. Boy oh boy did I go about it wrong though. But by the grace of God, he never left me. I just blocked him out with my lies and sin. I had such a longing for happiness that I was CHOOSING the wrong path but I had the right vehicle... Jesus' unconditional love for me.

Lyrics from https://www.flashlyrics.com/lyrics/eminem/the-real-slim-shady-clean-version-54